It's about time...

So I did that title for Erica...LOL. I know its what she is saying as she reads this, and it seems to fit. I haven't really updated people in awhile so I guess it's about time that not only I blog for Erica, but that I update everyone.

Where to start...Life lately has actually been ok, believe it or not. Hectic, crazy, stressful (financially), rewarding, etc, but needless to say pretty livable :)

Right now I am currently still living in North Charleston in Alta Shores apartment complex.

I was living with a friend from high school, Valerie, but she moved out the beginning of June. She moved back home to help pay off debt and save some money. Its kind of a bittersweet thought, I mean I would love to pay off my debt and save money, but at the same time I don't know if I could move back in with either of my parents. That is not to say that I do not love my parents or that we don't get a long. Actually the reason is that I have been living out of the house since 18 and I have come to love that independence, I just don't know if I could give it up to go back home. Granted after 18 you are independent from parents, but we all know that moving back home requires adjustment and the following of some rules that we have since left behind. Anyways, back to my update...I am currently living with Sierra, whom I recently got temporary legal custody of. She really is an amazingly kind and intelligent person, but needless to say she is a hormonal 12 year-old and I have never raised a kid before so this all new to me. It seems to be that a lot of people had doubts about me taking on a child, and while I can say I really appreciate their concerns for me, I really get pride out of telling them all...you obviously don't know a damn thing...lol. I think I have come amazing strides with my life and Sierra since I have gotten her, and even though it is a hard road at times, I don't regret getting her at all. To the people who have supported me all along, you know who you are and it means the world that you constantly have my back.

Speaking of Sierra, my sister is no longer speaking to me. Granted I don't really feel that this is love lost, but to be honest it does hurt that she is still so lost in herself that she has to act like this towards me. I hope she knows deep down inside that I will always love her and that the reason I have Sierra is not just because I love Sierra but because I also love my sister. Maybe one day she will fully understand this and things will start to heal. On a negative note, I have still not gotten any child support payments. I currently receive about $150 from DSS and even though I greatly appreciate the governments help, no one in there right mind can raise a child of any age on 150 a month. If you do, or you know someone who can, please have them call me ASAP. Anyways back to the child support...Josh (sperm donor/father (for lake of better term)) is supposed to be mailing his payments to the court in SC and those said payments are supposed to then be sent to me. Of course, no payments have come in from Josh. I called Josh last night to ask him about why he has not sent in any money, you know, give him a chance to defend himself because I try to give everyone the benefit of the doubt. Needless to say, it seemed like a lot of lies and on top of that I think he may still be sending the money directly to Amanda. I believe this because she has gas money, money to go shopping, and apparent money to let Sierra take an art camp this summer, but is currently unemployed and not on unemployment. How do you have money when you have no "apparent" resources for said money?? Whatever, I am going to email my lawyer and hopefully she can get something going. I mean that's why we pay lawyers so much right???

It would be really nice to start getting that money, Sierra has not been able to really do any activities this summer because I could afford to pay for anything. If I could start to get some money, I could actually register her for activities she really wants to do.

So moving on from Sierra for a minute and since I mentioned living with parents earlier...My mom is currently staying with me. She had to leave her last apartment and doesn't have a place to stay right now. She is currently looking for a job. She is doing fairly well and that makes me happy, although it is stressful at times to have another body in the house. ON the flip side, she helps watch Sierra when I am working my six out of seven days. Also, she cleans, does laundry, and helps cook dinner. I guess when you consider all that its kind of a nice perk. Plus, she is my mother and no matter what I love her and will always try and help her get back on her feet.

I just previewed this post and realized its extremely long...LOL, sorry to anyone who reads it...HA HA, like I said I hadn't updated people in awhile, and I guess I have more going on then I knew. Its hard to get the A. time and B. computer to write these posts. Right now we only have the desktop computer working and there are three people living here. One in particular loves to be on the computer forever, rather its brain games or the Disney website, Sierra is always on this thing. Plus, working two jobs and never getting a rest kinda makes me, well, exhausted. Therefore sometimes I just want to sit and do nothing...LOL. Anyways, I don't think I have anything else to really say at this time. I have to go change Erica's picture on my page before she disowns me ;). I guess the good thing is the next post maybe shorter?!?! Anyways, I hope you all have a good day. Comment if you want...